It’s been a while.
Last time I posted was couple months ago, other than music.
Well, Happy New Year!
Let me say, it has been a crazy and challenging 2013.
This year, 2014.
I’ll be 26 years old. It has been hard since after graduating Biola as a Liberal Studies major, I thought I was going into teaching. But slowly, God is closing that door in my life. I only thought that impacting kids will only come through teaching, but I was wrong. I do not know where God wants me to go as in career wise and it’s been very stressful because I am 25 without a career. I know in Luke 1:37, with God nothing is impossible.
I started attending a new church, MarsHill. I went to the first service last sunday and it was awesome. Pastor Mark Driscoll finished the last chapter of Malachi.
^ That above there was written in January. I kept it as a draft.. don’t know why but I guess I will continue on from there.
It is May 20, 2014
I am 26 years old, I’ve been attending Marshill for about 5 months now. He just finished the book of James and now finishing up the other half of Acts.
I got myself plugged into community group and it’s been so amazing, challenging and encouraging. It’s encouraging to know that the community group is gospel centered and not gossip centered. It’s encouraging to see all my brothers and sisters in the community group grow and be challenged by each other. I’ve got to share a lot of myself to them and they always pointed to Jesus.
My view of guys was messed up, thinking their purpose was to just get in your pants (most of them). It was really eye opening to hear from the brothers in my community group that they were once one of those guys; using girls emotionally and physically. One of them, coming to know jesus, went back to all the girls and repented. He said he wouldn’t have done that if he didn’t have the Holy Spirit. dang right? real repentance. humility.
I struggled with my worth, value and identity since I was little. Through Marshill’s sermons, community group, my sister and sisters in Christ, I started to find my identity in Jesus. I started finding my identity in the Gospel. Its been a struggle since I’ve always wanted the attention from guys. I felt satisfied from a guy giving me attention, even if it was the wrong kind. I’m not saying I’m perfect, to be honest, it is still a struggle. But in those moment, instead of feeding my sinful nature, I got to crucify it. I know that my worth and value was given through Jesus when He died for me on that cross. AND! it shouldn’t be the person you despise, but the sin they let control them.
Career wise, I want to work with kids.. one on one.
Especially when it comes to speaking truth over their life. I thought of Social Work/Counseling. It sucks to be 26 and be in this dilemma, but God is in control & I trust Him. I am grateful for the job opportunities he already placed in my life. :)
I am grateful for all the sisters, community groups, those few brothers that speak truth over my life- reminding me that it’s not about me but all about Jesus. Thank You. :)
so to end all of this. I am human & a sinner. I am going to fail and fall, but I have to repent & turn away from it. Continually fixing my eyes on the Cross. No room for Sin. Constantly preaching the gospel to myself and to others. Submitting my thoughts to Jesus.
I will find my life in You,
You’re always enough, always enough
Let the fullness of Your love
Be all I need, all I need.
- Kari Jobe: Always Enough
Saved through Faith alone, Grace alone & Christ alone.