Feb 2

Dang listening to this song brought me to tears.

Last Thursday, I had to do a biopsy on my neck. Previously, I did a Pet/Ct Scan and through that scan- it highlighted the right side of my neck. The doctors thought it would be best if I did biopsy to see if it was cancer or not. I knew it was going to be painful, but I thought it was going to bearable. Thursday approaches. I wasn’t nervous. I waited in the waiting room reading Mark Driscoll’s “Religion Saves.” After 10 minutes or so, they called my name and I followed the receptionist to the radiology room. I got into the room and changed into a gown. I got seated and the doctor was preparing me for the procedure. The main doctor came in and shared with me what was going to happen. He injected the numbing medicine. It was a little painful.

He needed to get - i don’t know how many samples- I think two.
But it was the most painful thing ever. He didn’t really numb some areas and while he had the needle in my neck- he just went through that ‘un-numbed’ area. I started sobbing and screaming. All I could think about was Jesus. The pain wasn’t just once- the other doctor had to hold me down because I wanted to get into a fetal position. He first had to put a needle in that was thicker than the second needle. The second needle is the needle that would be sucking out the sample. After failing the first time, he had to inject the needle to another area. As he was trying to get a sample, it was the most excruciating pain ever. After taking one sample out, he said he needed to do one more time. I was hyperventilating- crying. Everything was done in an hour.
I told God, “I don’t think I can do this anymore.” But even me saying that, I told God.. if I have to go through this.. I NEED you to be with me because I cannot do this.

So this song- She is blind.
In the lyrics, “I don’t know the reasons why you brought me here.”
And some might say I should blame God or even hate him.
But I do not blame him or hate him.

To be honest, I don’t know why this is in my life but she writes,
“So if all of these trials that bring me closer to You
And it may not be the way I would’ve chosen
When you lead me through a world that’s not my home
But you never said it would be easy
You only said I’d never go alone.”

So in the midst of my pain, I felt the closest to God.
I cannot compare my pains to what Jesus went through.
And for what reasons? He loved us. He wanted to demonstrate his love for us. (Romans 5:8)
My pain? It’s temporary & nothing compared to what Jesus went through. So I have to cling to Jesus because He is being glorified through this.

The pathway is broken and the signs are unclear
And I don’t know the reasons why you brought me here.
But just because you love me the way that You do
I’m gonna walk through the valley if you want me to.

Cause I’m not who I was when I took my first step
And I’m clinging to the promise You’re not through with me yet.
So if all of these trials that bring me closer to You
Then I will go through the fire if you want me to.

And it may not be the way I would’ve chosen
When you lead me through a world that’s not my home
But you never said it would be easy
You only said I’d never go alone.

So when the whole world turns against me
And I’m all by myself
And I can’t hear you answer my cries for help
I’ll remember the suffering that your love put you through
And I will go through the valley if you want me to.

When I cross over Jordan, I’m gonna sing, gonna shout
I’m gonna look into Your eyes and see, You never let me down
So take me on the pathway that will lead me home to You
And I will walk through the valley if You want me to
Yes, I will walk through the valley if You want me to

Lord, I come
To tell you I love You
To tell you I need You
To tell you there’s no better place for me than in Your arms

To tell you I’m sorry for running in circles
For placing my focus on the waves not on your face

You’re the only one who brings me peace
You’re the only one who brings me peace
In the storm

I’m so forgetful, but you always remind me
You’re the only one who brings me peace

Worship God, not because of your hardship, but because of His sovereignty and glory. When you get to heaven, it will all be explained. Until that day, we live on promises and not on explanations.

-Greg Laurie

From my heart to the Heavens
Jesus be the center
It’s all about You
Yes it’s all about You

At this new chapter of my life, God be the center of all it.

Shane & Shane - Yearn

Lord, I want to yearn for You 
I want to burn with passion over You
And Only You

Oct 4

Your hands nailed through My comfort 
Your body bruised My comfort 
Your name blasphemed My comfort
Your eyes on me My comfort 
Your tears of grief falling to the ground My comfort 
The Jewish king hailed mockingly My comfort

The sky dark and all the hateful voices
Your perseverance with eyes lifted upward
Your robe divided, Your cross brought low 
The tomb found empty, alive forevermore 

So I must hide away beneath the shadow of Your wings 
And when I lose my way I have a shade that covers me
You cover me

Thank You, Jesus

Sep 3

Shane & Shane featuring John Piper - Though You Slay Me

Do not look to what is seen.
Therefore, do not lose heart, but take these truths and day by day focus on them.
Preach them to yourself, every morning
Get alone with God and preach His word into your mind until your heart sings with confidence that you are new and cared for.

Though you slay me, yet I will praise You
Though you take from me, I will bless your name
Though you ruin me, still I will worship sing a song to the one who’s all I need 

Bolivia & Argentina Medical Mission 2013

missed this so much.

Glimpse of Bolivia & Argentina Mission trip.

God continues to reveal himself as I still write my thank you cards to those who have supported me for Bolivia & Argentina.

Bolivia and Argentina was such a blessing. I’ll probably not go into details, but Bolivia & Argentina have such a special place in my heart.

I had the coolest small group. We were called team Glory! Jackie Son being our small group- man. i love her so much. I was so blessed by her. Every word she spoke always pointed to Jesus. We would pray for one another & encourage one another. We got to share our deepest hurts, failures, being vulnerable and broken. But even when we shared, God was so present. Things we believed were something that could not be mendable or healed, we were reminded of his unfailing Love. A God who heals. A God who WANTS to heal. A God who wants to restore. A God who wants to use our brokeness for Him. He makes beautiful things out of our brokenness. We were known as the “intense” small group. hahaha. This is what it meant to be a community. A family of believers. Thanks! Like I said before- I learned so much from each and one of you.

Miss everyone! :)

I love your presence.

raw worship. so gooooood. 

When my hope is gone, when the fear is strong 
When the pain is real, when it’s hard to heal
When my faith is shaken and my heart is broken and my joy is stolen,
God I know that

You lift me up, You’ll never leave me searching,
Find You in the place I’m in, find You when I’m at my end,
Find You when there’s nothing left of me to offer You except for brokenness.
You lift me up, You’ll never leave me thirsty,
When I am weak, when I am lost and searching
I’ll find You on my knees.


beach cruisin’ song :)

Spending time with the father this afternoon reminded me of a letter a close friend wrote me a while back.

"He is life, he is the gentle whisper in your ear when you are hurting. He is the one whose very presence makes walls crumble.” 

It was a good reminder. Only Jesus can break my walls. Only he can.

Matt Chandler!!! :)

Matt Chandler!!! :)

(Source: baileyinchristalone)



This is actually my first time doing a facebook event on Missssionsssss. soooooooo. YEs let’s get to it.

I’ll be going to two missions this year.. which means… I neeed a lot of PRAYERRRRR and support!! :)

God has given me an opportunity to go to two missions this summer with 4 Christ Missions. One is Medical Missions; we’ll be going to Bolivia, Argentina and Brazil with a team of about 50 people. We will be part of a medical team who will be providing free of charge services. We will also be doing VBS (Vacation Bible Study), skits, testimonies and body worship to represent the gospel. Second is El Porvenir; we will be sharing the gospel through education. 
Last summer, I had the privilege to be part of El Porvenir, a program where we shared the gospel through education. There were 40 of us serving, ministering and loving on the kids. Not only was I challenged in the way I would communicate to these students, but also in questioning if I really needed everything I had back at home. These students live in a small village in San Quitin called San Telmo. Knowing that water is limited in this village, the kids still lived day to day. God used this to help me start questioning if I really needed the excess back at home and if I’d be okay without it all. I think it’s a difficult question for many of us to answer and often times we refuse to even think about it. But I believe that one of the crucial reasons why God calls many of his people to go missions is to get us to the point where we are faced with the reality of who He is and to believe that He truly can satisfy all our needs.
Being part of the two missions this year, I am excited for what God has in store not only for me but everyone else that will we on the team and also those that God has prepared in advance to reach. I want to continually learn and be molded by Him everyday as He opens doors for me to serve, teach and love. I ask you to join me in this. Although a lot of prayer support is needed, I will also need help financially. The total costs for Medical Missions and El Porvenir is $3,980(including airfare). It would be greatly appreciated if you could take part in supporting me prayerfully and financially. If you feel led to support financially- 3 options

PLEASE CONTACT ME through email: Michelleylee06@gmail.com

1. I can email you my home address
2. Transfer to my bank- B.O.A
3. Paypal

Argentina, Brazil and Bolivia 
Date: June 10-24
Cost: $1600 + Airfare- $1500 (more or less) =$3,100

El Porvenir
Date: July 14-August 7
Cost $880

total: $3,980

thanks for taking your time to read this! :)

I am trying to raise everything by end of May! :)