Malachi 4:2

But for YOU who revere my name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its wings. And you will go out and leap like calves released from the stall.

Sometimes I forget why I go through these things. I forget that I’m not alone. I forget that I’m clean. I forget that I’m forgiven. I forget that i am beautiful and smart. I forget that you love me. 

I don’t want to forget. I want to draw closer, God. I know you hear me. I know you hear my prayers. I know you know my struggles. I know you know I try. I know you see me when i cry. I know you see me. I am so sorry. I apologize so many times. I want my heart to hurt when I do or say things that hurt you God.

Having cancer
Going through a dependency on having a boyfriend by filling that void for so many years.
insecurities
fear

Jesus, You know ALL things. 
you allow things to happen because you’re going to use me to heal those that go through or even went through this.. those who need inner healing. (So be encouraged! God is with you. EVERY STEP of the way. Just remember He is there)

You’re sovereign. random. no. NOT RANDOM. hehe God you love my randomness. i love YOU. iloveyou.iloveyou.iloveyou. Break down my walls. HELP ME to break down my walls.